Originally posted on October 7, 2002
A prediction: I'm going to be able to look back on all of this craziness in a couple of months and shake my head and tell myself to never get stressed out like this again. At least, I hope to hell I'm able to do that.
Amen.
I still get anxious. I'm not over this yet, but it's getting better. I'm more... stable now, I suppose. Focused. There are still little things I need to take care of that are leftover from that time Before, but they're little things, and will be gone soon. I have to keep reminding myself not to take certain things so personally, since I'm still recovering from Before. And I have to remind myself to give myself a break. Stress does funny things to people, and I sure as heck didn't like what it did to me.
I've been rereading archives again, in an effort to stay up later than normal so I'll sleep better. Every time I curl up in bed to write, I fall asleep, so I thought I'd do some work on the computer tonight. I think part of that is the fact that I'm working 10-hour days, and haven't quite gotten used to getting up so early yet. It's getting better, but that's part of the problem. The other part of the problem is glare at work, and eyestrain again. I swear... I'm going to end up wearing sunglasses to work. Which might not be all that bad of an idea... I do need to get my eyes checked as well, just in case I need a new prescription.
I'm cleaning up my submission files. I subbed AbNo to DDP oh, about seven months ago, and haven't heard anything other than an early email that said somewhere around the end of September or October. Since I couldn't remember what email address I subbed with, I sent new contact info and a query. I also sent my new contact info to FictionWorks, because I completely forgot to do that before. I knew I'd forgotten someone... That reminds me. I have to make sure Sandy has my new address too. (email sent.)
Umm. Let's see. I think I could probably safely go to bed now. I really should be writing, but what happens once Edward, Regina, and Lily get to Regina's family's homestead is still gelling in my mind. Whatever happens, it's not going to be all good...
A prediction: I'm going to be able to look back on all of this craziness in a couple of months and shake my head and tell myself to never get stressed out like this again. At least, I hope to hell I'm able to do that.
Amen.
I still get anxious. I'm not over this yet, but it's getting better. I'm more... stable now, I suppose. Focused. There are still little things I need to take care of that are leftover from that time Before, but they're little things, and will be gone soon. I have to keep reminding myself not to take certain things so personally, since I'm still recovering from Before. And I have to remind myself to give myself a break. Stress does funny things to people, and I sure as heck didn't like what it did to me.
I've been rereading archives again, in an effort to stay up later than normal so I'll sleep better. Every time I curl up in bed to write, I fall asleep, so I thought I'd do some work on the computer tonight. I think part of that is the fact that I'm working 10-hour days, and haven't quite gotten used to getting up so early yet. It's getting better, but that's part of the problem. The other part of the problem is glare at work, and eyestrain again. I swear... I'm going to end up wearing sunglasses to work. Which might not be all that bad of an idea... I do need to get my eyes checked as well, just in case I need a new prescription.
I'm cleaning up my submission files. I subbed AbNo to DDP oh, about seven months ago, and haven't heard anything other than an early email that said somewhere around the end of September or October. Since I couldn't remember what email address I subbed with, I sent new contact info and a query. I also sent my new contact info to FictionWorks, because I completely forgot to do that before. I knew I'd forgotten someone... That reminds me. I have to make sure Sandy has my new address too. (email sent.)
Umm. Let's see. I think I could probably safely go to bed now. I really should be writing, but what happens once Edward, Regina, and Lily get to Regina's family's homestead is still gelling in my mind. Whatever happens, it's not going to be all good...
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